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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

REPEAT DWI - Terry Gilliland








EMTs call in repeat DWI-- Terry Gilliland


Heh! I know this guy. He married my best friend in 75. He lays a path of destruction in all of his relationships because of alcohol. I pity him. His children, all 4 who suffered under his BAD choices. Now he is on the news still acting smug, like it doesn't matter. My friend, is an angel. An accomplished musician, RN with outstanding work ethics and one of the most PURE people I know. She divorced him about 4 or 5 years ago... Even though he never let go of her and still tried to weasel his way into ruining her life. I am glad she never went back. He is a fake and will never change. NINE times DWI... what will it take?

5/31/2008





11/01/2008 UPDATE: the video is now removed from KRQE News 13  




Which is rather symbolic-read a new post here:  more!  

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Monday, May 29, 2006

THOUGHTS: Why?

an addict gets the absolution, treatment and allowance of rage?
while the one who holds it all together gets the brunt of all that rage even when it's not pointed personally to them... 
for once can they not see it's their lousy choices in addition to the "bad" things done to them that also contribute to their mess?

damn.

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Salon.com TV on Crack


After all, what bothers us the most about addicts is that they're doing what we're all tempted to do, either once in our lifetime, once every few years, once every few months, or once a week: Give up. We hate the addict because we want to tell him or her, "Suck it up! Do you think I like going to my tedious job every day? Do you think I enjoy reading credit card bills I can't begin to tackle? Sure, I'd love to stay in bed and eat chocolate and smoke crack for the rest of my life, but I don't do that, because I know better!"


again the addict wins the contest, 
consuming all the others around them, getting all the treatment while we who walk the straight and narrow, paying again the price. we are smug about the messed up lives of addicts- any kind whose lives are out of control. glad it's not us... yet at the same time fearful and full of wonder at how we managed to NOT fall into it...

this article speaks truth. it speaks volumes about the condition of our society and culture climate. read with the fear of God and thank him for the mercy shown in your life.... 

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

FORUM POST: Cleaning out a Closet

cleaning out a closet

Posted on: 05/27/2006 at 12:34pm (171 of 171) at OPRAH Arizona Sands Forum

much like cleansing ones mind brings space, relief, room for the new and the knowledge that you have rid yourself from lingering relics that no longer SUIT you... today is that day. as i look at each piece of clothing all the "sale" items never worn, wrong colors, things worn out, things given to me - kept because of sentimental value... i bless them and put it in the giveaway pile. RELIEF. until today i thought my closet was stuffed full with usable items. now half is on the floor ready to be boxed. at least 45 hangers were empty -- yes 45, and there is now 1/2 a closet free... this tells me two things: not to cling to useless memories, ill fitting thoughts or ideas that were too easy to take root. two keep cleaning on a regular basis and not put it off to an annual event...

may your MEMORIAL weekend be filled with family, love and good memories! 
--
rasama

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Amalgamarts

My creative addiction... rather than self destructive, it's life expressive!

Monday, May 15, 2006

THOUGHT: Addiction means unmet needs

at the bottom of addictshun lies unmet needs. 

rejection, criticism, hurts, abandonment, anger, painful memories the toxic poison buried inside the soul. the substance calms the rage, numbs the pain while the body absorbs the relief.. years of this abuse becomes one with the body... 

more on this laters...

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

James Frey - a million little pieces

when james frey was first on oprah

i found it unbelievable that he could be so calm, callous and cold about the "addiction" lifestyle he lived and how it tore through his family like a tornado... deciding that oprah perhaps saw something i didn't i ordered the book. i too could not put it down. reading gave better insight to what the man was about. not suffering from addiction is a gift to me in my life. however; having a father who is an addict and several people whom i care deeply about gave me motivation to stick with the story... WHY do they act the way they do? what drives them...

and yes the LIES. you see that is integral to addicts. they don't know how to tell the truth because the "sin" of addiction is denial. not being able to deal honestly with life or anyone for that matter. it appears that the addiction in james frey life is not yet healed. in fact the lies he was confronted with is still part of the process of breaking down the denial. until he is truly "busted" from that, i imagine none of his life will ever be true.

i don't say that he is wrong to have written and marketed the book that way it was done. I just challenge him to actually put into practice the TWELVE STEPS that he so disdained. I agree that the program suffers greatly from addicts switching from substance to support groups .

The heart of the matter of the steps is walking straight from substance but dealing with life and finally becoming HONEST enough to work on oneself as well as fixing broken relationships.

there is nothing worse than an addict lying to those around them to feed their intense, compulsive/obsessive behaviors no matter the cost. wait... in fact, there is something worse. someone who puts down the substance and never quits lying. who never comes clean with the sickening manipulations and false faces they show everyone because of the addiction never being totally CLEANED OUT...

I have great respect that james frey sat through Oprah's "skewering" as it's been called. I wouldn't have wanted to sit in that seat for all the money TV could offer. yet, he did. maybe he will indeed find a cleansing that forever changes his life...

i always did think that memoirs were slightly "fictional" so much of the hoopla seems out of place in light of the fact that the NEW YORK TIMES was so critical when indeed they themselves have been EMBARRASSED by the same deceit of other writers.....

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loss of self


addiction creates a loss of self identity
the substance an engine which drives the "man/woman" for the fuel. watching from the outside it looks much like this painting. the addict lives in an easy chair thinking things are fine when the reality of the black cloud shrouds clear thinking. dysfuntion is without the use of all limbs and mental capacity to create a decent future, or lifestyle that allows others to participate... the engine consumes EVERYTHING in the path. from the outside looking in, from one who is at the end of themselves with the addict my heart goes out to you and the man dilemna... (man of course being mankind).

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