If you think there is no resolution with the cycle of pain going on and on, keep reading.
You may think that without substance to hide behind, real life tastes bad. therefore those who are functioning without become the enemy. "straights" are not to be trusted. the addict waits and tests to see if love will cover their dysfunction. then the step on a mine unbeknownst to the co-dependent and all hell breaks loose. in anger though REAL TRUTH is told. all those mean little thoughts that float beneath the POLITE and newly acquired "Sobriety." Weeks of pretending one is ok finally breaks into gloom which ruptures the reality. suddenly everything is wrong, ugly, hated, and this darkness grows into an explosion. The "sober addict" then gets it all out, or at least as much as he/she allows and is fine. meanwhile the fallout on the one who stepped on the mine (bad choice of words, a reflection of the addicts past, stressful moments, who knows what triggers the mine). 
in addiction there is a carpet which covers all the dirt and junk swept underneath the surface.
the top is pretty and threaded with all the right design. yet under is poison. in fact the outward appearance is poison. for an addict only likes to show his/her pretty side. so an addict without their vice is actually more dangerous than one who is not sober. they have no control until they finally bow before the GOD (However they understand HIM) and realize they are a mess. until they actually admit to their failure to live life holistically, they will will swim in their sea of muck forever, bringing anyone down with them that they can.
it's sick. it's a sin. it is forgivable.
for they not only waste their lives but damage, wound and injure everyone else around them. i feel helpless around these people. thankful that i keep addiction at bay for I don't want to be mastered by anything other than the GOD who made me.
I fail too much sober, to even think about masking life with substance, or any other vice... think about being free right now. Get the help you need to free yourself.
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